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Wednesday, September 16th, 2009
2:36 am	Too funny to not post. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 5th, 2009
8:47 am	Excerpt from a very long dream. In this part of the dream, near the conclusion, I find out that I've been set up. Me: So I didn't actually kill who they said I did! Her: ... Me: Well, I didn't actually kill them when they said I did. Her: ... Me: I mean--in the process of being pursued--I did end up killing a lot of people. Her: ... Me: It's actually kind of funny when you think about it. I bet they had no idea that framing me for his faked death would get so many people killed. Her: ... Me: You're right. We should leave. (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 4th, 2009
3:30 pm	A bit of awesome has fled the world. Rest in peace, David Carradine. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 22nd, 2008
8:53 pm	Holidaze and SMT:I stuff  As of tomorrow, I will probably be incommunicado for a few days to a week. ( Megaten Stuff ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 15th, 2008
3:12 pm	Random Megaten Online stuff. ( You are now awesome enough to play the story. ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
12:22 pm	Borrowed from Cruea So yeah, I never post and now I am posting this thing. ( The list of questions and answers and such. ) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
11:29 pm	Age-based leveling. I Am A: True Neutral Human Fighter/Wizard (2nd/2nd Level) Ability Scores: Strength-14 Dexterity-14 Constitution-16 Intelligence-16 Wisdom-13 Charisma-13 Alignment: True Neutral A true neutral character does what seems to be a good idea. He doesn't feel strongly one way or the other when it comes to good vs. evil or law vs. chaos. Most true neutral characters exhibit a lack of conviction or bias rather than a commitment to neutrality. Such a character thinks of good as better than evil after all, he would rather have good neighbors and rulers than evil ones. Still, he's not personally committed to upholding good in any abstract or universal way. Some true neutral characters, on the other hand, commit themselves philosophically to neutrality. They see good, evil, law, and chaos as prejudices and dangerous extremes. They advocate the middle way of neutrality as the best, most balanced road in the long run. True neutral is the best alignment you can be because it means you act naturally, without prejudice or compulsion. However, true neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it represents apathy, indifference, and a lack of conviction. Race: Humans are the most adaptable of the common races. Short generations and a penchant for migration and conquest have made them physically diverse as well. Humans are often unorthodox in their dress, sporting unusual hairstyles, fanciful clothes, tattoos, and the like. Primary Class: Fighters can be many things, from soldiers to criminal enforcers. Some see adventure as a way to get rich, while others use their skills to protect the innocent. Fighters have the best all-around fighting capabilities of the PC classes, and they are trained to use all standard weapons and armor. A fighter's rigorous martial training grants him many bonus feats as he progresses, and high-level fighters have access to special melee maneuvers and exotic weapons not available to any other character. Secondary Class: Wizards are arcane spellcasters who depend on intensive study to create their magic. To wizards, magic is not a talent but a difficult, rewarding art. When they are prepared for battle, wizards can use their spells to devastating effect. When caught by surprise, they are vulnerable. The wizard's strength is her spells, everything else is secondary. She learns new spells as she experiments and grows in experience, and she can also learn them from other wizards. In addition, over time a wizard learns to manipulate her spells so they go farther, work better, or are improved in some other way. A wizard can call a familiar- a small, magical, animal companion that serves her. With a high Intelligence, wizards are capable of casting very high levels of spells. Find out What Kind of Dungeons and Dragons Character Would You Be?, courtesy of Easydamus (e-mail) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 14th, 2007
8:38 pm	This is pretty much accurate, minus a point or two. The Backrubber Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer (DGSD) Lusty but indirect. Kind, but also using friendship as a means to sex. Oh, that feels gooood. You are The Backrubber. We call you "The Backrubber" because you straddle that fine line between coming on to someone and just treating her nicely. Backrubs are just one example; you'd meet for coffee, or talk about books/movies, or even argue a little bit, all the while mostly preferring to screw. Your indirect approach is not some evil trickery, but rather a result of your open mind. You'd enjoy either love or sex, but the latter definitely doesn't require the former. While you are responsible and ambitious, you absolutely DON'T have uptight views on relationships. So ultimately, you just enjoy a woman, and let things take their course. If she wants you, great. If not, that's fine too. Though you're not thinking too much about Love at this point in your life, odds are, when the time comes, you'll be very happy settling down. Your ideal mate is gentle and horny, just like you. Your exact male opposite: The Vapor Trail Random Brutal Love Master Always avoid: The Peach (RGLM) Consider: The Playstation (RGSM) Link: The Online Dating Persona Test @ OkCupid - free online dating. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 10th, 2007
9:24 pm	Long Overdue Catharsis It's been far too long since I wrote anything of worth in this journal. It's been far too long since I've broken down the image and been frank with anyone about myself. I'm in a bad place, and I'd like to think that it is that whole darkest-before-dawn thing, but I don't know. So here am I--this is the state of things: Financially and academically, I am in a tenuous position. Which is to say, I am as close to broke as one can be while still affording enough food to eat daily, enough gas to get to school, and enough left over to pay the bills and make some sort of payment on my two credit cards. My level of debt is paltry as far as the rest of the world is concerned but, to me, it is crushing. I can't get a job to try and fix this situation until the end of this semester, because of my academic situation. I had once failed out of UCF. I then took some time off, went to a couple of community colleges, earned my Associates Degree. I reapplied to UCF and had to practically bully my way back in, dealing with people who, despite trying to hide it, acted as though I had no right to return to their university. They've had a noose around my neck for an entire year; despite the high average that I had upon getting my Associates, they have power over me until I raise my UCF gpa to a 2.0; my average when I left was something in the realm of a 1.4. The first semester, a series of holds and unexplained errors resulted in my getting 1 class, outside of my major (though thankfully not outside my interests). I could have raised my gpa sufficiently in one semester with a full course list; except that while I am under the yoke of readmission, I can only take 2 courses per semester. My gpa required 4 courses worth of grades to revert my status to that of a normal student. With only one class in the Spring, and being allowed only two courses per semester, that meant that I was inescapably stuck in Probation for the entirety of the 2007 school year. Why does that keep me from getting a job? Quite simply: I'm almost free. My last two semesters have been good grades, I'm in sight of the 2.0 mark that allows me to be a student without having to jump through hoops or worry about the little twists of fate. It's the end of this particular line, and it is where the stakes (such as they are) rise considerably. I have to take an active stance against random chance; I have to make absolutely sure that this semester concludes the way that I need it to because, regardless of my good performance throughout 2007, I am still on probation. If, for any reason whatsoever, I end up with a C average, my probation extends into next semester. If, for any reason whatsoever, I fall short of a C average, then I am gone. My time at UCF is finished and, likely, my chances of getting in anywhere else are also shot. Is there any reason to get such poor grades? No but, damn it, stranger things and worse turns of fate have happened to me, and I need to minimize any sort of risk to my academic standing. The result is that I am poor. Too poor to do much else aside from live. I make some unnecessary expenditures, but it is always because I am with other people and the fact that I am not financially secure (and unable to make myself financially secure until the end of the semester) is not something that I wanted generally known. I've always had the opinion that things will work out, but this is the first situation wherein working it out means not following through on things I've meant to do. I say that I intend to do things because I really do intend to, but now I find myself in a situation where, regardless of intentions, I am unable. Mentally, I am beginning to feel strain. My creative writing class is taxing the limits of my patience and it is causing me to act in ways that I didn't think I was capable of acting. Workshopping a total stranger (as most classmates are) is the worst mistake a teacher can thrust on a student, when these students are taking the basic creative writing course. It isn't because of workshopping, itself, which is so useful a tool that I am converted wholeheartedly to its use (have formally not been so big a fan of them). It is because an intro-level creative writing course has 25 people in it. It is because we also need to write critiques for each of the 10-15 page stories. It is because we workshop 3 a class. And it is because we are more encouraged to point out what doesn't work in the piece rather than what works. You can never tell how a person is attached to a story when they write it for a grade. Some want to make the grade. Some love to write. Some discard the story, writing it specifically for class. Some write the story because they write stories, and incidentally they needed one for class. And you can't really tell much about a person from the way that they write; anyone who tells you otherwise is a romantic fool. I can just as soon say that I know who you are by your medical records, or the music you listen to, or the food you eat. So... I don't know your style, your audience, your intentions in regards to publishing, your particular attachment (or lack thereof) to the piece, and I am supposed to rip it apart and hand you back the bloody shreds in the name of what is best for your writing. If I were your friend, one of your trusted advisors, if I were familiar with your intentions, then I could tell you what does and doesn't work based on putting myself in the perspective of your intended audience. When I don't know you, I have to be Everyman. Everyman does not read literature. Everyman makes no allowances for style which, as part and parcel of what they are, appeal to some more than others. Regardless, I can still workshop you, stranger-classmate. I can focus on the most glaring errors and gently draw attention to them, while reminding you that these other devices that you used were quite effective. But I cannot do that for twenty of you, stranger-classmate. Because with each critique I write, and each story I read, I resent having to butcher your piece and having to find a way to gently feed it to you. Before long, the line blurs between constructive criticism and criticism; what I point out is still wrong, but my delivery lacks the tact that your previous peers enjoyed. Eventually, I don't care what you did right about the piece; your critique is my grade, my grade is my continued presence, and you become an obstacle. I don't have a whole lot of sympathy for obstacles, and I hate that because I know (in this case) that you aren't an obstacle by choice; the professor has made you my obstacle. This mindset has extended into my life outside of class, and I hate it. If you know me, you know how I argue. I know I get carried away; until now, though, I've always had the consolation of knowing the rightness of my argument, the validity of my point, complete confidence in the fact that I chose to argue something because I knew it was right. The issue wasn't right simply because I said it was right, I argued on behalf of the issue because I was convinced of its rightness beforehand. Now I find myself overstepping those bounds. I argue against something because I think it is wrong, not because I know it is wrong. The difference might seem subtle, but it means worlds to me. It puts me in the position to argue something that, before, I would have just calmly let pass. I prided myself on being non-judgmental; I never thought less of someone when they confessed something to me, I merely commented on the situation and the facts. How fall I feel I have fallen, when I begin to judge perfect strangers based on the briefest glimpses of their lives? Somehow, I will have to atone and purge this mindset. I'm not sure what form atonement will take, but it is necessary if I am to return to the way I was; forgiving, calm, prudent, thoughtful. Physically, I am one step away from being on the comeback trail. I don't want to go too much into detail, but if I can take the step and hold the path, I should be where I want to be by the end of the year. I don't do dangerous diets, I don't believe in surgery, but I have no problem damaging myself through hard work to the point where any movement is accompanied by pain. I've spent the last several years in pain, despite being perfectly healthy internally. If I can keep the pace, I think something wonderful will happen. If I can keep the pace. If I don't stop. If I don't find an excuse, tell myself that I can make up for any lapse with even more hard work. It seems ironic that the biggest obstacle in physical development should be mental. There it is; that is who I am as of this moment. I don't want encouragement. I can't handle it. Every well wish burns me. If I could manage it all of this without ever telling a soul, I would. But I can't, and the above is proof that I do need understanding from others, even if I never hear a word about it. A quiet sort of understanding is all I wish for. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 9th, 2007
1:18 am	Something about books. These are the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing's users (as of today, 30 September 2007). As usual, bold what you have read, italicise what you started but couldn't finish, and strike through what you couldn't stand. Add an asterisk to those you've read more than once. Underline those on your to-read list. Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell* Anna Karenina Crime and Punishment* Catch-22* One Hundred Years of Solitude Wuthering Heights* The Silmarillion Life of Pi : a novel The Name of the Rose Don Quixote Moby Dick* Ulysses Madame Bovary The Odyssey* Pride and Prejudice Jane Eyre A Tale of Two Cities The Brothers Karamazov Guns, Germs, and Steel: the Fates of Human Societies War and Peace Vanity Fair The Time Traveler's Wife The Iliad* Emma The Blind Assassin The Kite Runner Mrs. Dalloway Great Expectations American Gods* A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius Atlas Shrugged Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books Memoirs of a Geisha Middlesex Quicksilver Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West The Canterbury Tales The Historian : a novel A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man Love in the Time of Cholera Brave New World The Fountainhead* Foucault's Pendulum Middlemarch Frankenstein* The Count of Monte Cristo* Dracula* A Clockwork Orange Anansi Boys The Once and Future King The Grapes of Wrath* The Poisonwood Bible : a novel 1984* Angels & Demons* The Inferno* The Satanic Verses Sense and Sensibility The Picture of Dorian Gray Mansfield Park One Flew over the Cuckoo's Nest To the Lighthouse Tess of the D'Urbervilles Oliver Twist Gulliver's Travels Les Misérables The Corrections The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time Dune The Prince The Sound and the Fury Angela's Ashes : a memoir The God of Small Things A People's History of the United States : 1492-present Cryptonomicon Neverwhere A Confederacy of Dunces A Short History of Nearly Everything Dubliners The Unbearable Lightness of Being Beloved Slaughterhouse-five The Scarlet Letter* Eats, Shoots & Leaves The Mists of Avalon* Oryx and Crake : a novel Collapse : How Societies Choose to Fail or Succeed Cloud Atlas The Confusion Lolita Persuasion Northanger Abbey The Catcher in the Rye* On the Road The Hunchback of Notre Dame Freakonomics : a Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden Side of Everything Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an Inquiry into Values The Aeneid Watership Down Gravity's Rainbow The Hobbit* In Cold Blood : A True Account of a Multiple Murder and Its Consequences White Teeth Treasure Island* David Copperfield The Three Musketeers*** Bastard out of Carolina (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 22nd, 2007
10:39 am	So... It's been over a week since my accident, but unless I talked to you afterwards or had to cancel some scheduled event, this is the first you are hearing of it. I'm fine, more or less, and I managed to avoid including anyone else in what happened, at the expense of my car. I haven't been online much, I haven't been socializing much, so I haven't talked to some of you in quite a while. I have been loaned a vehicle from my parents, but I am not permitted to leave the state with it. Those of you who knew that I'd be driving up the east coast, I am rescheduling that. Those of you who are on the coast but didn't hear about it, I was going to give you a heads-up soon. Not that it matters now, anyway. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 8th, 2007
4:41 pm	The results... Symmetry calculated at 99.3% The previous normal picture was rated at 98.5% I have no reference for these percentages. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
5:49 am	Skull obsession, why I am not symmetrical. Much as I thought, it seems the left half of my skull is... I don't know, thicker than the right? I noticed this first when I realized that there was a small gap in between frame of my glasses running along the right side of my head that was absent on the left side. The above picture features my faces; the first is left duplicated, the second is natural, and the third is right duplicated. This kind of sucks. Current Mood: Asymmetric (16 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
9:14 am	Interesting... The Everything Test There are many different types of tests on the internet today. Personality tests, purity tests, stereotype tests, political tests. But now, there is one test to rule them all. Traditionally, online tests would ask certain questions about your musical tastes or clothing for a stereotype, your experiences for a purity test, or deep questions for a personality test.We're turning that upside down - all the questions affect all the results, and we've got some innovative results too! Enjoy :-) Personality You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about others than concerned about self, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more lazy than workaholic, more traditional than rebel, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more introverted than extroverted. As for specific personality traits, you are romantic (100%), intellectual (89%), adventurous (69%), greedy (64%). Stereotypes Young Professional 70% College Student 55% Prep 54%   Life Experience Sex 38% Substances 14% Travel 15% Politics Your political views would best be described as Libertarian, whom you agree with around 59% of the time.   Socioeconomic Your attitude toward life best associates you with Upper Class. You make more than 45% of those who have taken this test, and 79% less than the U.S. average. If your life was a movie, it would be rated PG-13. By the way, your hottness rank is 52%, hotter than 23% of other test takers. TAKE THE TEST brought to you by thatsurveysite (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 19th, 2006
2:20 am	I am the Devil. You are The Devil Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition. Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it. What Tarot Card are You? Take the Test to Find Out. (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 4th, 2006
5:36 pm	Credits for Ultimate Alliance? Hilarious. I'm going to try and record the ending credits, yall seriously have to hear this stuff. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
12:31 am	And the world record goes to... I may have the current record for the shortest ownership of Final Fantasy 12. Since the game came out today (yesterday evening,) I might not hold that record for long, but still-- just under two hours between purchase (I had a preorder) and return. Me: (Walks into Gamestop with FF12) What is your policy on returning or exchanging new games? Gamestop Guy #1: You can only exchange it for the same game. Me: Fine, how much is the trade in? (Tosses FF12 on the counter) Gamestop Guy #1: ...Already? This game just came out. Me: You don't understand. It's like they found out the mathematical formula for betrayal, and this game is the result. Gamestop Guy #1: $30 for trade-in. Me: (I paid $60 for the game, collector's edition) ...Take it. Fuckin give me Ultimate Alliance. Gamestop Guy #1: It's really that bad? Man, that sucks, this is the first thing I've heard about it. (I assume he means in regards to customer feedback.) Me: It's not Final Fantasy. It might be a good rpg, but it isn't Final Fantasy. Gamestop Girl: What's so different about it? Gamestop Guy #2: They changed the battle system, it's like <insert name of some other game here.> Me: Is it too much to ask for a protagonist who isn't 17 years old? Gamestop Guy #1: Enjoy your game, sir. My gripes with this game... oh where do I begin? Let's start with the characters... orphans. Fucking orphans, I am sick of fucking orphans. I can just imagine the board room meeting on this one. Guy in Suit #1: The main characters... they should be young. Children, maybe, but just a little older. Guy in Suit #2: But what about their parents? Guy in Suit #1: Hmm... that's right. Parents generally wouldn't let their kids go off to save the world. Guy in Suit #2: Quandry. Guy in Suit #1: I know! They don't have parents! They're orphans, young enough to be stupidly naive and idealistic, and with no voice of reason to keep them from doing irrational things. Guy in Suit #2: You are a genius! Guy in Suit #1: And I'm thinking about giving them very annoying personalities. Seriously, Square... Enix... is it too much to ask for you to make adult main characters? Mature main characters? Intelligent main characters? Does that cost you guys extra in the development department? Programmer: We can either create our main characters with Maturishop, but the program costs $700 to license. Or, we can use this shareware version of IdiotTeenMaker for free. You got crows hopping around on dead bodies, plenty of death, plenty of violence-- this is obviously not a child's game. Why are the main characters almost children themselves? But hey, good writing can make even younger characters less than annoying, right? Which brings me to dialogue. Panelo, please shut your mouth before more stupid escapes. Kites, go die in a gutter. Vohn, or however the fuck your name is spelt, please sever your vocal cords and then sear the ends. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Combat is horrible. Remember above, where Gamestop Guy #2 mentions that the combat system is like <whatever game>? Fucking... why? Why did they fuck with the Turn Based System? This combat system is, essentially, some MMORPG bullshit. Run around in the field with monsters roaming around for whatever the fuck reason. Choose to attack something, and then you run up to it and attack it, with your ATB bar refilling for the next attack. Sounds simple, right? Except for the part where you spin the camera around to make sure your battle hasn't grabbed the attention of other nearby beasties who immediately go into gangbang mode. Shin Megami Tensai's reinforcement was an interesting addition to combat. Final Fantasy 12's cornhole system is not interesting, it's grafted from Final Fantasy 11 without the benefit of having an intelligence of any sort watching your back. But do you know what the betrayal is here? It doesn't even feel like Final Fantasy. "Oh, they have the same battle system as..." Fuck that... have the battle system of practically any Final Fantasy except X-2. This isn't an online game, don't give me online battle bullshit! And I thought nothing could piss me off more than Final Fantasy X-2. Congratulations Square-Enix, you've shown the ability to constantly outdo yourselves. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 6th, 2006
7:24 pm	Street Fighter: The Later Years Watch it. Now. http://www.collegehumor.com/video:1711287/Is6584 (Comment on this)
Monday, September 18th, 2006
3:25 pm	It's the meme-ish, rem-ish bone. If you read this, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be suprised -- or mortified -- about what people remember! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, June 9th, 2006
5:12 pm	Orange Lake Write-Up A.K.A. It's my journal and I'll bad talk you if I want to. So, I waited quite a while before actually getting around to this entry. Some of you may chalk that up to laziness, and you would be correct. Events first, or people? I think I'll go with people, in no particular order. Matt Cruea, a.k.a Big Funny Cruea was in fine form for the duration of the trip, and though I feel that I missed a great deal of comedic genius occuring roughly between the hours of 1am and 6am, what I did see (sorry, Tiner) was top notch. Whether it was the endless number of blind jokes (Sorry, Tiner,) impersonations of other attendees, or just general craziness, I found it hard to maintain my bad-guy demeanor around the ever humorous Cruea. Cody Coleman, a.k.a. Young Ulcer One of the nicest guys you could ever meet, Cody was nonetheless stressing his twelve-year-old-looking self towards an ulcer (Sorry, Cody.) Cody has a very particular response to drama ("...fuck...") and it generally sounds odd coming from him. People tell him that he curses awkwardly, and occasionally I can see it (Sorry, Tiner.) Other times, though, Cody can throw them down like a sailor whose leave was just cancelled. Joe X, a.k.a. Token Black Guy? As one of Matt's friends, I had some expectations of what Joe would be like, and he easily exceeded them. One of the coolest guys on the trip, Joe was laid back and funny in excellent amounts. Not that it mattered, but I didn't realize he was black until Matt's occasional jokes. Through my shades, everyone is dark (Sorry, Tiner.) Josh Tomar, a.k.a. Cool Jew You're going to hear me say that alot of people on the trip were very funny; it seems to be a trend amongst AVAs and hangers-on such as myself. Despite that, when I say Josh is a funny guy I mean that Josh is a funny guy even compared to the high comedy standard set by the group as a whole. He also has the distinction of being the coolest Jew on the trip. Adam X, a.k.a. Namor It seemed like a morning ritual for Adam to squeeze into his yellow swim trunks and take a dive into the pool. The man was entertaining, strumming the guitar with practiced ease and joking about with the best and the rest. That broken ankle thing after the Denny's dinner? Nicely played. Ig, a.k.a. Oh Igmund I couldn't seem to take off the kidskin gloves when it came to poking fun at some of our fellow attendees, but thankfully Ig had no such problems. Between impersonations (of Nikki,) excellent blind jokes (Sorry, Tiner,) and some cool guitar-playing and singing both in the room and outside at night... (Wow, this sat around for a while, I might finish it someday.) (Comment on this)